i had a really creepy dream last night involving my little cousin running along these rock cliffs that were by the ocean at night and there were those really cruddy yellow lights that lighted up the scene, and I was nervous but I figured that he was a good kid and wouldn't fall in or anything, and then this wild boar came out of the darkness, and all the skin on it's face had been peeled off so its face was all bloody and meaty and it had red eyes, and then my cousin chased it out of site and then he came back and he told me that he had chased it off the cliff into the ocean. and then my aunt and uncle came to pick him up and they were crying and yelling at my dad and later I asked him why and he told me that they had a baby recently but that everytime the baby laughed it felt pain in the back of it's neck so then it would cry which made it hurt even more and then it's head fell off and it died and it was because it had cancer.

Bizzare...

Dream

Last night I dreamed that my family bought a house in Florida. It was on the beach and in jungle-y foresty area on a peninsula that had a few other houses on it. although it was florida it was still a little chilly outside and it was chilly in the house. I was unhappy with this new living arrangement. We had almost nothing in the house, and the house was also rather big (or at least by my standards... I think it was two or three stories). I had brought Jude (my cat) to live with me and there also was a Boston Terrier that came with the house. I realized that a bunch of teenagers were trying to break into the house by opening the sliding glass doors that were in the back of the house on the back patio so that they could steal stuff. But I saw them coming in and got mad and yelled at them about how there isn't anything in my house for them to steal and that my family is poor and that if they want to steal stuff then they should just go to some rich person's house because it would be more worthwhile than stealing from me. I was mainly concerned because I did have my only valuable item with me, my laptop, and I was worried that they would see it and try steal it. They left and I went to other parts of the house to go on my laptop/try to sleep. but throughout all this the teenagers kept on coming back and kept on trying to sneak in through either the back door or the front door. Because of this I was really anxious, because I couldn't sleep or do anything at all without constantly worrying about the teenagers breaking in, and since the back door and the front door weren't in view of eachother I couldn't just stay in one room and watch both of them: no matter what one door would be unguarded and out of my sight. The entire dream I felt extremely anxious and worried. eventually though, as if I was in the beginning of a videogame and the creator of the game decided to give me something to help me out, I was told that I could choose to give one of my pets the ability to do Karate. I chose Jude and then it looked like Jude was put into After Effects as a Puppet (like, puppet style animation) and I watched it all render really quickly and then Jude knew Karate. So I put Jude by the backdoor to guard it and attack the teenagers. I went upstairs to sleep and then when I came downstairs I saw that the teenagers were coming in through the front door so I confronted them and yelled at them again. Then one of the teenagers got all nasty and told me that they had already broken in and that they had killed my dad. I told him that he was full of shit because my dad was sleeping upstairs and I was just there and saw him. So the teenager was all like "I'm gonna go kill your dad" and I was like oh shut the fuck up you're full of shit, you wouldn't do that and get the fuck out of my house! And really, I didn't think he would do such a thing. They left but I was now feeling extra anxious and I was worried that either Jude wouldn't be able to fend off all of them if they came in through the back door and that they would hurt and kill him, and I was also worried that since he was just an animal that he would leave his post and then they would get in (the, i guess, narrator made it appear as if I could just trust the animal to do my biding, but I was really paranoid and didn't trust anyone other than myself so I worried about it). So I quickly ran into my backyard which was the jungleforest by the beach and grabbed two huge iguanas and I put them on either side of the back door to guard it. And then I woke up. I also wanted to mention that although my family bought the house, I appeared to be the only one in it other than Jude and the Boston Terrier, except for when the teenager mentioned my dad, and when he did I looked upstairs and I could see into a room and my dad was sleeping with his back to me, although I couldn't see his head or anything because it was blocked by the doorway. Also everything in the house was painted this sickly pale yellow-goldish color. and the kitchen was poorly lit. even my dad was wearing a golden colored sweatshirt when I saw him sleeping. The house felt big and empty, and even the penisula itself, although there was another house or two in walking distance, also felt very solitary and empty.
anyway, so yeah, that was my dream.

Anxiety Dream I

Lately I've noticed a pattern in my dreams involving animals and anxiety and/or uncertainty. This is a depiction of one of those dreams in which I had two pet rats but didn't have a cage to put them in, so I kept on putting them in shoddy enclosures while trying to work on other stuff and I kept on having to worry about them escaping.

I'm hoping to make one or two more pieces involving pairs of animals, and then turning these into paintings.

But we'll see.